the back burner

green beans and potatoes

I'm eating them right now. They're leftovers from Saturday, I think. (I'm working too much to notice what people are eating in my house. I only notice the things they've already eaten.) I'm sitting with Evan in the dining room, wondering about my time priorities.

I got really blue about going to the field, all of a sudden. Then Evan said, "So the light at the end of the [support-raising] tunnel is turning out to be another tunnel."

"Yeah," I said, "only this tunnel's got lights."

And it's true -- finishing one really hard thing (a paper, a bachelor's degree, a relationship, a marathon) doesn't mean you're finished dealing with hard things. If anything, it only means you're probably ready for even harder things yet to come. But the old excitement is breaking through the doldrums, I think. After all, Jesus is all I need. Really. Whether I act like it or not.