It's true. Support-raising, language learning, friendships, my typing skills, falling, climbing back up -- everything seems to be humming along at high velocities. Acceleration is positive, which means it's getting faster.
I feel like I'm on Wonka's boat in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory -- for you cinephiles, it's probably more like the boat in the old movie than the new one, more psychadelic, less roller-coaster-y.
And Gene Wilder won't stop singing.
Is it raining? Is it snowing? Is a hurricane a-blowing? Heck, I don't know. But we are clipping along at quite a pace. I don't care about where I'm taken so much as I do about the more immediate dangers. How deep is this water? What if I fall out? Why aren't there any seatbelts or life preservers?!
I guess I'm just a little intimidated by my lack of control. ("No, no, let's go back to the slow stuff. I'm really good at feeling like I'm in control when we're going slowly!") But how am I going to relax enough to reflect? to pray? to stretch? to rest? There's room on this boat to lie down, but I don't think I can...
Posted by nickles at October 1, 2005 09:09 AM | TrackBackI know how you feel, but don't worry because God has everything under control, I think Jesus was right when he said to have faith like a child.
A child of God,
Anna
Amen, Anna. I'm learning to rest responsibly. That is, I think I used to imagine rest as lack of activity, something that lazy people do. But I'm discovering that rest is a human need. Whoever prayed that prayer, "May our hearts find no rest until they rest in Thee?" They were right on the money. Resting in the Lord gives confidence to work and to play in ways that glorify him.
Yeah. I'm working on that, er, I mean, God's working on that.
Posted by: bob at October 3, 2005 09:23 AM