What am I doing new year's? Making coffee and making money. This is a blanket RSVP to all you party-planners. Better luck next year.
At the moment, though, I'm not working. I'm enjoying that feeling of I-slept-late-and-am-now-working-off-a-caffeine-and-carbohydrate-high. The day is mine to unlock. Possibilities are creeping in under the bedroom door. There's a lot to do, but I have both sleep and zucchini-walnut bread inside of me. Once I brush my teeth, there will be nothing I can't tackle.
It's a good feeling. Equivalent to an outdoors tarzan-jungle-yell.
Speaking of what to do today, I've been reading a tribute to Rev. Fred Rogers (of Mister Roger's Neighborhood), written by Amy Hollingsworth. It emphasizes the importance of basic activities such as reflection, prayer, and being kind. Seriously convicting. Equally inspiring. The fact that going off to be quiet and to talk with God about how I'm feeling is a "normal" thing to do comes as an earth-shattering revelation to me, the extrovert. The fact that it's a necessity makes me all defensive but totally resonates with my experiences.
Lately, it's been really difficult to be honest with other people about my feelings, but I'm trying to rise to that challenge. Not to be passively honest (which is easy: "if they ask, I'll try to tell the truth"), but actively so (which is difficult: "I want to stop and share with you how I'm feeling, even though we both have busy lives and it might be awkward"). Yeah. I'd much rather evade intimacy and skate along on the assumptions and impressions of others.
...hmm. That thought just led to a series of mini-epiphanies too personal to share. Time for me to go do some of that quiet stuff. Alone. Then maybe I'll brush my teeth.
Posted by nickles at December 31, 2007 11:12 AM | TrackBack" I'd much rather evade intimacy and skate along on the assumptions and impressions of others."
I think that is the last thing someone would ever think about you (or I for that matter). You (and me) have always come across as pretty "intimate", soul-bearing sort of folk. This is something I can relate to. Very much. The whole evading intimacy thing. Yeah, I can understand.
I would much rather take certain people from different parts of my life and let them watch what they typically have been a part of then let them come to their own conclusions. I like telling people what to do and how I feel, but sorting through it all and connecting the dots is exhausting work.
word.
Posted by: bob at January 31, 2008 01:51 PM